exhausted

not from studying...from crying..becauseeeeeee i just finished a hindi movie!!..now it sounds hilarious..i rarely watch hindi movies..about 3 and a half years ago i watch another one...and these two times (3 years ago and tonite) are the 2 times i cried hardest in my life..last time i scared shaz with a call..and that time i got a reason for the crying... it was a turning point in my life..a big one..for the better of course..and im glad i cried that hard

but tonite..i dunno whats the reason that i cried till my chest ache...i dont think its the exam...i normally cried with the exam stress as well..but not this kind of cry (people..just ignore this entry if u r still reading)

probably coz i know another turning point is approaching..
probably i've concluded sth that subconciously have being bugging me..sth that i thought was trivial..and still think is..but probably its not..probably im ready to let go..and letting go is always painful..

its funny that hindi movies can be the trigger for my crying..the storyline has nothing in common with me...2 married couples..the wife n husband from different couple fell in love and cheated on their partners..all then separated and remarried...happy ending!!...yet i cried like mad..

hmm i need to seek some comfort from mama now..