~ venturing into new adventure ~

this one is supposed to be a quick one..funny ive got addicted to blogging at the most awkward time..well where do i start?i'm blessed with so many good news since the last 72 hours..and also sad ones. Al-Fatihah for pak chaq Basri, may Allah put him among His beloved hamba and give his family strength and patience in this sorrowful time.That was the reason my family vanished into thin air last week..they've been all over the country..visiting relatives and catching up on all family affairs. And the good news, my big bro slash cousin getting engaged (indeed a much waited event after a melodramatic problem 2 years ago), a second cousin will follow step and another cousin will also take the plunge. and unfortunately all will happen in june when i'll be on my hands and feet trying to survive Obs n Gynae on my prof's mercy. sigh..i've missed so many family gatherings..and yeah need to get it to my head that a lot more will be missed in the future.

come to the main subject..I was picked to join the Cambodia team!!!yeay...i cant thank nikmun enough..been mengidam to do this for years..and alhamdullilah i was chosen..so now i will learn what it takes to organise a relief work to an underdevelop country.will i be strong enough?tough enough?will i be a nuisance to others?or will i be a good helping hand?i've worked with three quarter of people in the team so that makes things a lot easier and comforting.what i fear most is..will i be able to stand seeing people's suffering staring straight back into my eyes?i'll put all these to test and if i survived..i'll continue the legacy and spread my wings to do bigger and better adventure.going to Palestine maybe?or i settle with rural Sarawak first?anything that comes my way..i'll be more than glad to embrace them.

and the most important thing that happened on this 'domestic day' of mine (read=cooking,cleaning,grocery shopping)..i got my clinical exam result!!my heart leaped in joy and finally i could exhale a relief sigh..I PASSED!!!the exam was so traumatic i was 110%convinced i would fail miserably..though i kept my fingers crossed all the time.geraldine..this one's for you..thanks for your hugs,coffee and biscuits..and i hope u'll find many more kind souls to have the honour of dancing with u..and there's no doubt we danced beautifully together..my God im so unprofessional...i actually love all my patients.and all of you beloved friends..no words can say how thankful i am for being there to hold me and weathered the storm till it ends.i know i will always need u guys while im still breathing..so please dont turn away and run..

another adventure?in the spirit of experiencing my adulthood..ive made the decision to work..yes!as in working out there in the dangerous-mysterious- full of villain- world and earn my own money.ive taken the step to leave my comfort zone and venture to discover what the world is really like.havent started yet though but i'll be there in a few weeks time..never expected the application will be so tedious.but cant expect things to go my way all the time ait?and deciding to join the cambodia team without asking mama n ayah first was also attributed to the fact that im almost 24 now.im no more ayah's lil girl,mama's lil princess.and luckily mama didnt object.she's used to the fact that i know what's best for me and however hard things get i'll pull through.so there you go..

hate it that i got a handful of things to settle once the exam ends but love it at the same time.my adrenaline is running high. just a checklist..

• BMEDSCI
• cambodia meeting
• IMAM sympo
• birthday niesa and hani
• med surgery and psych

im just a few weeks away from becoming a final med..so my new resolution is to play and procrastinate less and stop being a lousy student.. cant wait to start Psych..mama and some pals told me to consider becoming a Psychiatrist (considering that i seemed to have magnetic power that draw fellow psychos into my life)..we'll see what it has to offer first..then i'll give them my verdict.

pheww short nye laa this session.hani's coming so i better give blogging a rest for a short while.mata'