Sulking coz something sucks
"It's important in life to conclude things properly.Only then can you let go...." Life of Pie by Yann Martel
Iklan sket..This book is a MUST READ!it'll stretch your imagination and teach you bout faith,survival,science,art,love,life principles etc,etc..and the best part is..its funny and surprisingly light.
It hurts when something you hold dear to your heart actually sucks.When i started feeling that it sucks, i began to sulk. And since sulking is such a rare occasion in 24 short years of my life,i sulked pretty badly..bringing me to the brink of depression.So i burdened my fellow friends with 24 hours of sulking,moaning,misty eyed hanging to their sleeves.I smiled a bit when someone (see previous entry) said my life's not boring =P.Another thing is i feel guilty to succumb to this intuition that the 'thing' sucks,ya laa feelings are abstract and has no scientifically proven base.But yesterday i got the proof.The 'thing' sucks!!I was really thankful when i got to know.Guilt evaporated and again my intuition didnt fail me.So i made a conclusion yesterday,since the 'thing' truely sucks,i've no obligation to make it significant in my life.And off i go,no strings attached.
The day seemed to brighten a bit..
I went book hunting with shaz..my therapy when im down.Book hunting= visiting any second hand book stores to find books in my wish list.Fished out 8 great books..and simultaneously burned a big hole in my pocket (considering my financial state now).Dont really mind this frenzy..its therapeutic *giggles*
As we walked in the drizzle..i thot of the 'thing'..it has not got the best fate anything could get.Yet bad fates keep revisited its days..sprinkling spices in its life.I observed the 'thing' closely..in my opinion,it kept repeating the same mistakes,kept taking the wrong steps,kept stumbling while thinking it has took all the right measures to encounter all these dark clouds.So i thot,maybe because it never learned the right lessons from what happened..that all the bad things were sent its way..again and again..till 'it' gets it
I reflect this on myself..annoying things entered my life everyday..in abundance..repeatedly.So far i tried to be patient and rationalised the reasons behind them.At last i'll usually say..its expected and just bare with it.. ie give up to deal with it.'It' be a person,a tutorial,a class,an impunctual bus,a job etc etc.Ive always been unlucky..tried my best to come to term with this,kononnye redha laa..yet i still hold some grudges against my 'bad luck'.So it strikes me,probably because i havent got it,havent learned the lesson Allah wants me to..this chain of unwelcomed events keep rewinding in my daily life.So what do i do?Pay attention and learn some more laaa
Aiyooo...im starving.okla..nak makan
Iklan sket..This book is a MUST READ!it'll stretch your imagination and teach you bout faith,survival,science,art,love,life principles etc,etc..and the best part is..its funny and surprisingly light.
It hurts when something you hold dear to your heart actually sucks.When i started feeling that it sucks, i began to sulk. And since sulking is such a rare occasion in 24 short years of my life,i sulked pretty badly..bringing me to the brink of depression.So i burdened my fellow friends with 24 hours of sulking,moaning,misty eyed hanging to their sleeves.I smiled a bit when someone (see previous entry) said my life's not boring =P.Another thing is i feel guilty to succumb to this intuition that the 'thing' sucks,ya laa feelings are abstract and has no scientifically proven base.But yesterday i got the proof.The 'thing' sucks!!I was really thankful when i got to know.Guilt evaporated and again my intuition didnt fail me.So i made a conclusion yesterday,since the 'thing' truely sucks,i've no obligation to make it significant in my life.And off i go,no strings attached.
The day seemed to brighten a bit..
I went book hunting with shaz..my therapy when im down.Book hunting= visiting any second hand book stores to find books in my wish list.Fished out 8 great books..and simultaneously burned a big hole in my pocket (considering my financial state now).Dont really mind this frenzy..its therapeutic *giggles*
As we walked in the drizzle..i thot of the 'thing'..it has not got the best fate anything could get.Yet bad fates keep revisited its days..sprinkling spices in its life.I observed the 'thing' closely..in my opinion,it kept repeating the same mistakes,kept taking the wrong steps,kept stumbling while thinking it has took all the right measures to encounter all these dark clouds.So i thot,maybe because it never learned the right lessons from what happened..that all the bad things were sent its way..again and again..till 'it' gets it
I reflect this on myself..annoying things entered my life everyday..in abundance..repeatedly.So far i tried to be patient and rationalised the reasons behind them.At last i'll usually say..its expected and just bare with it.. ie give up to deal with it.'It' be a person,a tutorial,a class,an impunctual bus,a job etc etc.Ive always been unlucky..tried my best to come to term with this,kononnye redha laa..yet i still hold some grudges against my 'bad luck'.So it strikes me,probably because i havent got it,havent learned the lesson Allah wants me to..this chain of unwelcomed events keep rewinding in my daily life.So what do i do?Pay attention and learn some more laaa
Aiyooo...im starving.okla..nak makan
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